reflecting on life, this is the 2nd christmas without you! trust me, there wasn't a moment that you weren't on my mind. always wondering, what would lizzie think about this? or how would she react to that? seeing aayden opening his presents from santa and reacting to them. he is now understanding the concept of santa claus. and he knows about heaven and somewhat about baby Jesus! he knows that he has the best mommy angel in heaven. he knows about your car accident. its been a busy day, matt and jessica and uncle frank and ed were all here , ed cooked a ham meal, it was delicious. remember how he used to make you sandwiches, or whatever it was that you wanted? he is still just like that and aayden is damn lucky to have such a wonderful role model in his life. im getting off tangent here. but anways christmas is almost gone, and secretly im so glad, i miss spoiling you. im so glad that i had the opportunity to spoil you rotten, it was is in GOd's plan for me to spoil you and love you the way that we did. we went thru alot together good and bad, the bad always came out good though. we had our mommy daughter times, but you were growing up to be a great little mommy and responsible young adult and you never got to fully bloom. for that i am the saddest! i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you more than anybody could ever imagine. xoxoxoxooo

i know that this pic is a little late, but you were so thought of on your angelversarry date, i wish that i could have been there with your girls and daddy. they all miss you so much lizzie. you had a very special group of friends that loved and still love you to this day!

my dear sweet angel lizzie,

we had to say good bye to your car this evening and it made me so sad, i cried. i feel so bad, b/c it was a part of you.  But then eddie made me realize that you have helped us in a difficult time by using your car when we needed it the most. we used it until the transmission went out and it was too expensive to fix. so we took the little money that we got from the car and we bought me a ring, the ring is in your memory. its a christmas present from you, to me.  its beautiful and you would love it and would be "borrowing" it from me all the time, i just know you would:)  its a "lizzie" thing. so, i wanted to thank you from my heart for my beautiful lizzie ring that i will wear in memory of you and everytime i look at it and all of it's beauty i will think of you and smile

you are my heart, my soul and my baby!

xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox

A lot has changed since you have been gone... I wish that you were hear to share these new memories with. I know that you are with us and watching down on us, but sometimes it doesn't feel like enough. I miss having someone to talk to all day long on the phone with and no matter what was going on you were able to make humor out of the situation. There are so many things that you taught me about life and so many people you introduced me too, I am very thankful to have your family and Jenny and Medea in my life. Aayden is the most amazing boy, I miss him a lot but I know that he is happy. We will never let you be forgotton! xoxoxoxoxoxo!

To my darling lizzie!

the day i found out i was pregnant with you, i was in shock! i thought i had the flu, so i went to the ER at FLW hospital, not even suspecting i was going to have you:)

never gave it a second chance!  they ran a test and BOOM- i was going to be a mommy again-to you:)  God gave me this blessing, b/c i was told that i would probably never have kids again. He gave me you, even if it was for a short time.  When i reflect back on the past 20 years, i just thank God that i was able to "spoil you rotten"  I was so glad that we got to do so many trips, remember Myrtle Beach?  that was fun. hurricaine charlie coming thru the first night we were there!!! made for an exciting  journey. remember you were "in love" hahahha, we had to drive to columbia SC after they evacuated us from the beach, had no idea where the heck we were going!!  it was my birthday and remember my buddy paris delane leaving me a happy birthday song on my cell? recall the trip to denver? i promised you that when eminem came to concert we would go??  i was always one to keep my promises, so i had to take you. all the way to denver !!! you and i and crystal...you just found out you were pregnant with aayden.  we went to the show, what a great concert. remember lil jon? you knew all the words to all of his songs! you knew all the words to all the people who played that  night!! i remember by the time eminem was on, you were getting so tired!  speaking of tired, i used to LOVE watching you sleep, i was really happy when you slept, b/c you didn't ever get enough sleep.  i would kiss you and tuck you in, even at 20! no doubt we had a special mom daughter bond~ i can barely look at an orange julious stand.  i keep seeing you behind the counter. I miss my lizzie, God i just miss my Lizzie...

so much love to you xoxoxoxoxo