i miss you so very much, and i am so sad still all the time. i hate thinking that your mom will be gone in 10 days, and then aayden eddie and jess soon after. i will miss aayden so so so so much, he is my life and you know that. i love him more than anybody in the whole world and i only want good things for him. pretty soon there will be nothing left in columbia of you, but your memory, and i hate that. i want to freeze today forever. i miss you so very much. you really were my best friend ever, i went through eveything with you. i don't think i will ever go a day without thinking about you constantly. i hate it when people keep saying that you are in a better place, this is a better place, and if there is one person that didn't want to die, it was you. you brought life to everything you ever touched or even looked at. i wish you were here. please come back, i miss you. i'm so sorry that you were taken that day, and i hate it so much. why is all of this happening to me? you know how important your family is to me, especially now, they are all i have left of you, and they will be gone. i ahte this, i miss yoou so much.

baby doll!  i was having a very positive day today, now i am at grandma and grandpa's house, the house is quiet, it's late and i am up. all i think about is you. i just got off the phone with barb and she tells me that she has a picture of you on her wall and everytime she looks at it her heart breaks, i know that you would want me to quit whining, i just can't at this point. i remember whenever i was sad and teary-eyed you, no matter what you were doing, would always come to me and tell me to stop crying mom, that everything was going to be alright! and you would put your arms around me and give me the BIGGEST hug taking my breath away and then you would make me laugh!! you have such a gift about you. you never really realized it, you were such a spunky little shit!  hahahahaha, i had to cuss, cuz i know how much you enjoyed it! remember how i would always tell you to watch your mouth?  that was a waste of my time!!  LMFAO!!  you really enjoyed getting me all riled up!  i am so thankful that you came into my world.there is only ONE lizzie.One!! you have really made an impact in this world, and you didn't even know it.  I love you with all my heart and soul, i wish that i could have changed that day, but God needed you and whitney, right now, i am so selfish, b/c i am still not ready to give you up! i have no choice, maybe one day i hope to understand all this! thank you so much for all the wonderful years we had together. even the tough years, i wouldn't have changed any of it for anything in the world!! you taught me alot about myself. even more so since your accident. i will write more later sweetheart. you take care of each other up in heaven and make sure you are a good girl with NO CUSSING!!!  hahaha.

♦ hey angel, i was laying here, trying to get to sleep and was just thinking about all the fun times we had.  even when things were hard between us, it always turned out to be ok, b/c we had that kind of relationship.  i told eddie this evening that i wish you would come in the front door, go right to the kitchen, open the refrigerator, scan the contents, pull out the milk while munching on something, and then open the cupboard and get out some cereal and have a big heaping bowl of cereal and milk!!  LMAO!!!  then you would have brought your goodies up to my room and get your silly butt and the computer and of course your cell phone would ring a zillion times and i would just watch you and get a huge kick outta you.  you made me laugh inside.  cracked me up, your spirit!!!  crystal called me from a concert she went too and she was emotional, she said that she could feel your presence!!! i can feel you at times, not nearly enough though.  i never ever thought that somebody could be missed so much, but you are! it's almost been 3 months since the accident.  i am getting stronger, i have too for aayden's sake and for the sake of jess and matt and ed and everybody esp for me.  we will be moving soon and you are coming with us.  hahaha.  keep watching over us angel baby! i love and miss you so much

so that isn't the best picture of us and I meant your mom didn't have to worry about you this year because you are in a better place. Please help us all get through 2008! 

Well... it was the first New Years in along time without you, and this year your mom had to worry about you, becuase you are in a better place! I just wish that we could have kicked it like we always do on New Years! Your benefit went well! I had a lot of fun and there was NO drama! That is a first! I miss you so much! All of us got so dressed up for you and Paige even wore pumps!