Hi sweetie,

Yesterday was a Very special day for us all!!  It was your son's 4th birthday!  He wore us all out, we took him to a museum of play with his cousin Morgan and he was pretty entertained the whole day!!  Im sure you would have approved!!  4  years ago was the most important date that i can remember, other than when i became a mom myself!  MY baby, had her own baby!!  Inside , in my own private way, i mourned that i was losing my lizzie, my baby!  I didn't like that, but that was my own selfishness!~ Then when i saw that beautfiul little baby boy named aayden , all of that went out the door!!! I always knew he was going to be special!!!   You became a momma yourself, unreal!! and thats when your life changed and you were doing all the right things..... I remember being in that hospital room with you along with what seemed like a hundred others!! all of your closest friends, and i remember you saying "mom, don't look !"  i was like too late as we could already see aayden's head!!  I remember crying, it was so emotional! I remember Chris giving me a big hug and kiss, i remember the smile on your face, i remember you holding him so tight!~~  oh girl, that day will forever be embedded in my heart and in my mind!  I remember you being so strong while you were in labor, you only cussed one time and even apologized!!!  you  surprised me so.....you brought your fav down comforter with you and i remember you biting on that comforter until all the feathers came out all over the floor of the labor room!!!   we were laughing!!  Aayden will ALWAYS know his momma, I promise you that~!~ I miss you with each and every second of every day, with every beat of my heart.....you have taught me alot in your short life and even more with the 2+ years that you have been gone.,.......I keep a candle lit for you....Keep shining my love.....<3

Got the news on Friday mornin’
But a tear I couldn’t find
You showed me how I’m supposed to live
And now you showed me how to die
I was lost till Sunday mornin’
I woke up to face my fear
While I’m writing you this goodbye song
I found a tear

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I got up and dialed your number
And your voice came on the line
That old familiar message
I heard a thousand times it just said
Sorry that I missed you
Leave a message and god bless
I know you think I’m crazy
But I had to hear your voice again

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

So play your upside-down, left handed
Backwards base guitar
And I’ll see you on the other side
Superstar

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I’m still crying
I’m crying for me
I’m still crying

hey honey, just been thinking of you so much. remembering all the fun we had together. i know youre handeling your diva business in heaven.  they say that you dont know what you have until its gone, but its so different in this case, i did know how special you are, and i always have. i guess thats what make it so much harder to deal with. i love and miss you so much lizzy.