Whitney on the left and my angel on the right in her bright yellow shirt that matches her personality!!!  This was taken at her school of cosmetology and this was the other girl involved in the accident, she also died:(

so with you in mind as my inspiration, i've made the decision to do cosmetology. i'm going to finish up my paperwork tomorrow for financial aide, and will be making an appointment with the school to talk to them.. :) i hope youre proud of my lizzy. everytime i feel like i cant do it, i will remember you and how strong you were and how much you helped me pull through my tough situations and ultimatley made me a stronger person too, and i WILL do it. even after youre gone, youre still playing such a great role in people's lives. i love and miss you so much liz.

hey honey. well its october. the days are counting down until that one dreadful day that no one wants to remember. doesnt seem like the 2 years since youve been gone have been quite the same. we miss you lizzy. i know youre looking down on us and sending us your love. i love you, your mom seems to be doing pretty good. i try to bring her as much laughter as i can (but its tough to measure up elizabeth, i'm not going to lie), you were like the funniest person i ever knew in my whole life. but i always keep my promises, and i do promise to TRY! :). the world will never be the same. we all love and miss you so much. please visit your mom in a dream, come to her and i bet even if you didnt say a word it would make her whole life so much better. please liz. i know it wont happen until its really time but i just feel like its time now! i'm such a hardass, who am i to try to tell an angel what to do! lol. just think about it, ask the big guy if its ok to just make one special visit. it will mean the world. i love you i love you i love you i love you!!!!! until we meet again..

lizzy. all i can say is thank you. the last thing i imagined when i went to sleep last night was to see you in my dream. and it was so real. even though where we were was unknown to me, i feel like you brought me to heaven to have special, uninterrupted time together. ive never been anywhere so beautiful and CLEAN! all that white was incredible and the food was delicious lol (of course my hungry self would comment on the food) but God liz, thank you. i will never forget the memories we shared, and it was so nice to talk to you about them. i cant believe that dog charley showed up like that!!! lol, i almost forgot about him and *poof* out of nowhere here comes the three-legged dog! we had such good laughs about him when we were younger- and that didnt change at all because last night we laughed until we couldnt laugh anymore. it was so special of you to tell me about my son and that he's ok. it meant so much to me, even though i didnt get to see him, i know he's got a permanent smile on his face because he's there with you. i wish i would have asked you so many questions, about heaven and if they play rap music up there. or drive cars on big rims... or even if everyone really IS the same age in heaven. but i forget everything when i saw you. it was so hard to grasp, like an out of body experience to be able to be sitting across the table from you, and during the dream it didnt even seem like "this cant be happening"... it was more like we were just friends who never even lost touch with eachother. just carrying on and on about our parents and kids. i never thought a parent could love their child more than your mom loves you (or i love my baby of course) but you love aayden so much, and i'm glad that you know he loves you and knows you. i love you lizzy and i really appreciate you visiting me more than you know. please give cash hugs and kisses and hold him every night. tell him mommy loves and misses him and alll about his baby sister brooklyn. until we meet again (homegirl) =].......

 

hey lizzy... its almost been 2 years since youve been gone and i still can't believe it. you never think something like this could happen to someone so close and dear to you. you were my first best friend in the whole world, and even when we were 6 you would make me laugh so hard my stomach hurt. when you moved i was crushed, you were my very best friend and then you were gone. to me, back then, it seemed so horrible. but now i would give anything to have you still here on earth with us. how silly of me to complain about you being in a different town, and as much as i thought i missed you then - i could have never braced myself for as much as i miss you now. your son is just so gorgeous ... and he's happy and taken care of. i dont think there's a person in this whole world who can match the love your mom has for you and that little boy. she's a strong woman lizzy, she does things to make a difference instead of dwelling on this huge loss and i dont know how she does it, that little boy youre holding up there (my son cash), he was my everything. i came to your funeral when i was pregnant with him, and just a few weeks later, i had him and before i could take him home, he died. i'm still crushed and i cant get over it. i dont know how to just make myself let it go, all i can do is look up to your mom. losing you had to of been so devistating that i cant even comprehend. i know to lose my baby was just so horrible and my whole world crashed down, but i just couldnt imagine losing him after spending 20 years with him. i know youre taking good care of him, and i know in return he's giving you all the love in the world. little kisses and hugs, sleeping in your arms- and i know that youre such a good mother that he doesnt even realize its not me. i was just telling your mom that we've always been so much alike, since we were just kids in elementary school and we were drawn to eachother like magnets from day 1. inseperable. god i remember all those times we would go for walks in my parents neighborhood with my dog blew singing our own special version of "LEAN ON ME", or swimming in your pool in your parents back yard, we used to turn on the music in your parent's garage and SWEAR we were dancing better than Aaliyah and TLC with our belly shirts on and girl, you had the hugest crush on Tim Lord! lol, dont think i forgot about all that stuff! we went to 6 flags one year, we must have been 8 years old and i got my hair died bright pink cuz you said it would look cool, , yea not so much. i still remember the first time i saw you after 5 years of you living in columbia- you were even more beautiful than i remembered. i have to say that i am just so happy that we always kept in contact, we always called or wrote eachother (pre-myspace), and i am so thankful for it. i'm married now to a really really great guy, you would love him, and we have a little girl together, her name is Brooklyn Chanel. (its so wierd to me because , she actually resembles your Aayden!) it's so crazy to me how something can happen in the flash of an eye, and your whole world is turned upside down... and everyone else just goes on with their lives uneffected. but with you, lizze... everyone you came in contact with you left a lasting impression on them. you know, there are people put on this earth who are meant to touch people and bring happiness. people who, when they die, leave masses of people behind greiving- and that was definatley you. there were so many people at your funeral (and i know there were a lot who couldnt make it), i know you saw all of us. what i'm getting at here is, i believe your life purpose was to bring happiness and love to people, bring people together and remind them how to care- and you definatley fulfilled your purpose. i miss you so much liz. i know you already know that but it helps to say it... i know you hear my prayers and i know you can hear me when i talk to you. sometimes you probably laugh at some of the things i say but i miss my friend and have to tell someone, lol. i just hope you know that the world is missing you, heaven took you too soon and maybe i'm selfish for saying that but its truly how i feel. i give you my promise that i will keep in contact with you mom and talk to her as often as possible, i promise that i will be as strong as i can be, and i promise to continue to send you my prayers all the time. i love you and miss you so much and one day we will meet again, it will be like we never skipped a beat. (hopefully we'll leave out the belly shirts this time ) please give my little boy kisses from me, hold him close and tell him his mommy misses him every day and his little sister brooklyn knows all about him. i love you...