Liz,

Some days it feels like I saw you yesterday other days it feels like it's been forever. I will never forget the way I felt when I heard Crystal tell me what had happened. I could barely understand her over the sobbing. I kept thinking that someone was mistaken that it wasn't you or that you were fine and someone got confused or someting I don't know but right after she told me I felt this pain and I still feel it to this day it's unexplainable but it's the worst thing I have ever felt. After she told me I kept searching websites for local news thinking I would read that you were fine and I could call her back and say no she's fine. Thats what everyone wanted to hear. And then I got in the car and just started to drive I wasn't sure to where but I ended up on this dead end street looking at the sky and there was a break in the clouds and this huge whole with sun light pouring through. It was like God came down and got you and carried you up leaving a gap in the cloud. When I got to your moms house and saw her my heart broke I knew that I would never understand how she felt and never wanted to. She loves you more than you will ever know. To see all your family there so quickly they love you so much. And we all miss you Paige, Crystal, Kirstie, Jenny, Medea, everyone the list goes on forever. I think of you all day long any break I have in my thoughts is filled with memories of you and questioning why you were taken from us. We needed you here. Aayden needed you Chris needed you your family we all did. I never got a chance to tell you that I loved you as much as I did. You Rachel Paige and Crystal are my best friends my whole life. No matter how ofter I saw you we were friends since we were kids so I'm lucky to have so many memories I just wanted to make so many more. It sucks because we all know that you were taking your life by storm and becoming a woman doing what you had to do. We can only imagine the great things you would have brought to the world. Because if they are anyting like Aayden they would be amazing. Six months I just keep saying it over and over again it can't be real no way not you. Feels like you are gonna show up one day and be like sorry I was busy or something totally unpredicatble like you are. I love you Zizzie I miss you I can't wait to see you watch over us just like you did when you where here. We all love you more than anything and will see you sooner than it seems. Meet us at the gates.

Love you always and forever.

Lauren

We thought of you today,
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
And will tomorrow, too.

We think of you in silence
And make no outward show.
For what it meant to lose you
Only those who love you know.

Remembering you is easy,
We do it everyday.
It's the heartache of losing you
That will never go away.

chorus:
though i'm missin you ( all though i'm missin you)
i'll find a way to get through ( i'll find a way to get through)
livin without you
cuz you were my sister, my strength and my pride
only god may know why
still i will get by

verse 1:
who woulda known that you'd have to go
so suddenly so fast
how could it be a bitter sweet memory
will be all...will be all that we have left
and now that your gone
everyday i go on
but lifes just not the same
im so empty inside and my tears i cannot hide
though i'll try to face the pain

chorus

ohhhh there was a so many things that we could have said
uh huh....if time was on our side
ooooo yeah now that your gone
i can still feel you near
so i'll smile with every tear that i cryyyyy
though i'm missin you ( all though i'm missin you)
i'll find a way to go through ( i'll find a way to go through)
livin without you
cuz you were my sister, my strength and my pride
only god may know still i will get by
howwwwww sweet were the closest of friends
but i'll wait for the day
that i see you again
see you againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

chorus

all though
i'm missin you
i'll find a way (x3)
you were my sister
my sister
my strength and my pride
only god may know why
still i will get by
i'm missin(repeats) you
oh yes i am
i'm missin you

today is kind of sad for me, it just hit me again, like a slap in the face! my memory that im thinking about is you, the whole package, the baby, the toddler, the adolecent, the teenager, the beautiful young mommy, and the aspiring hair stylist! i miss your phone calls, the thousand phone calls a day, remember that?  sometimes i dial your number and hang up.  crazy...???  a young lady answers now, she has your famed number.  i hope she is as vibrant as you were:).   i miss your messes around the house, i miss your room, i miss our tiffs, i miss our apologies, i miss you laying all over me and making fun of me, the list goes on and on and on.  I MISS YOU LIZ~~~  i know that you were in the best times of your young life, i had every faith in you.  you always came thru.  i miss our hanging out and our going out to eat and talking about diets and shopping and clothes and your guy troubles and your friend troubles and your accomplishments and your cussing and your fussing and your being in my bathroom all the time even though you had your own, i miss your cereal eating and your huge belches and your touch chick attitude! i miss your looks, your cracking up laughing, i miss your hanging on me and begging me for money. i miss wht the future was to bring. I MISS YOUR LOVE....